I am not really sure how indie films go but as far as movies are concerned, it is also best characterized by two words-UNDER BUDGET. Forget about Spiderman jumping on top of one building to another, or Jack and Rose screaming while holding on to dear life in a boat that is about to be split into two, or even Neo trying to stop the bullets in thin air from guns firing around with amazing choreography...Truth is they can not even afford a movie star, much less an actor just to do a part. Seeing these fancy scenes in indie movies should probably be like shooting an arrow on the moon because if it so, then it would not be indie anymore unless the producer is a really hefty fellow like Bill Gates or the Sultan of Brunei.
Under budget is also the perfect word for what's happening right now. Just two weeks ago, I've been busy with a very bold move that most of the people, upon learning, raised eyebrows. It's not that I am against them because if I'd be told the same, I would not exactly be ecstatic about it.
Culture tells us that children only separates from parents in these two occasions: (1) when he or she gets married or pregnant (for a girl, but of course its not that popular because many also opted not to); and/or (2) parents are not present for various reasons like death (God forbid), or living in a remote location. Notice in the previous sentence that it can hardly happen because of the "OR" (if you happen to stumble into a little logic, you know what i mean). The second option has been experienced by children blessed (or is it?) with residences far from where they study (Oh how i envy them when I was in college!). Yet, it can still not be accurately qualified for total separation because these kids do still get back to homes with their dear parents when school is over.
Now, what stuck me was the hugeness of the word INDIE now. Two weeks ago, I decided to take in this word (or is it really) as it is, literally, figuratively, whollistically, and wherever the suffix -lly could be appropriately added. Got this teeny weeny single detached house from an aunt (actually I am renting it, but of course on a considerable discount, hehe) and I've been busying myself filling it with "house stuff" (in mature language, it is called appliance) to make it habitable. Funny I never imagined myself so serious about house affairs until a fortnight ago when I began worrying on how to extend into its thinnest possible state the small and minute savings I got from my previous job. Laddles, spoons, floor mats...Picture them in the hands of a 22-year-old weasel like me. I get a headache everytime I do so. Goosebumps came to me like lightning striking unexpectedly in a rice field when I found myself one day wandering in the kitchen section of the department store...shucks, reality bites!
A week ago, I attended this revival gathering in our church and arriving at the venue late with a bag of house equips (clothes clips, brush, etc.), I saw my mom with her "amigas". My hommies weren't there for the night so I went to where she was. One of her dear "amigas" (actually a close tita) just exclaimed "Look what are you buying, you're like someone married!" My reaction: speechless.
Right now I have been receiving various reactions from the people who've heard about this. Most expressed hesitation, and indeed i have been hesitant and reluctant eversince I decided to do so especially that I do not have a steady job yet. However, I do not want to be deferred this time. I heard my erpats say to me just a while ago, "Why would you let others decide for you?" while we were discussing something else. It wasn't exactly something related to this major decision but I just realized I could use that everytime I decide and having second thoughts. Well, time to take risks. I have been taking them when I was away from home (been to war-prone areas for sometime) but I do am having difficulty taking that attitude when I am here at home. Relocation sometimes could do wonders to a stubborn person like me.
*Sigh*, indie films are more appealing yes, and so is indie life. But yes they both suffer scarcity of funds, in other words, UNDER BUDGET. Believe me, I am in the verge of venturing into the latter and those two words looms like dark clouds bringing rain. Wish me luck!
Note: This article would have been better if the author had first hand experience in an indie film. Unfortunately, congenital circumstances prevented her from doing so. (Translation: Walang talent sa arts at pagmumukha kaya pagtiyagaan nalang po natin ang komentaryo hinggil sa indie life...hehe)
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